Application Away!

Today is the day! Our application is in the mail and on its way to the agency. We are very excited, we are on our way. Bethany was amazing as I freaked out about 4 times before I even sealed the envelope. I think this process (and my blogging honestly about it) will probably expose several of my more endearing traits, such as my obsessive worrying about stuff that is beyond my control and feeling like I am being judged. That is kind of how I feel right now. Our life was condensed onto a 6 page application in all of its imperfect glory and now someone will look through it and decide if we are worthy to bring children into our family. Plus I had to include pictures with me in them! Aaarrrrgggghhh. Let the judging begin.

Of course I am quite fortunate to have the support of people who have gone through this before. I shot off a quick email to Pam, she got right back to me, and once again reminded me that they are not out to exclude us, but trying to figure out our situation so that they can do their best for us. I know this is true, but it is hard exposing everything about yourself without worrying about what kind of ammunition people will have against you. Sounds like I have had some bad experiences in the past, eh? But that is past, and I will put my faith in God, and no matter what happens, I will have Travis, and my friends, and my family. Honestly, that is more blessing than I know what to do with, but here is hoping that we will get a little more on top of that.

So the waiting begins. It will take about 2 weeks until we hear back about our application. Hurry up and wait seems to be the theme of our journey to children, so we will at least be somewhat prepared for that aspect of this process. Which means lots of blogging for all of you to read and stay up to date with me. I will also be doing lots of research on Ethiopia, and hope to keep you all informed on my discoveries. I am also going to be listing links that I think might be good for everyone to check out just to get a feel for Ethiopia, for international adoption, and other stuff that may be of use for us all to be as prepared as we can be for accepting our new ones into the family. So keep checking, I'll try to be good at updating the links as well.